T E R H A R U :')

my heart is as hard as a rock but when its soften,its as soft as a cotton candy <3

heheheheh,sje smbung post for tday :D dok puas lagy blogging td ekpon x)

bru sdh iron bju skola lake,fuhhh sminggu dakyoh ironing dh --' hehe :D

taw tak? ak nages tbe2 td,alahai gler saboh --'

duk relax2 jap td,all the memories came flashing in my mind,

dh la sblum bru td,ak trjmpe gmbr2 lme Mama & Abah & ak mse baby,

then i found a 'Happy Eid' card written by Mama for Abah,ak un bce,

card uh tahun 1996,tpi it was a month bfore i was born,pnjang gler isi lam card uh o.o

ak bce pnye bce,unexpectedly,tears escape my eyes,

tgk gmbr dyeorg hugging2,smiling seme wt hti ak rse a lil cracked,

ak sdey oke? nmpk je ak oke tpi ak bnci ngat dpt parents hok divorced gini,

ak taw Abah tak syg ak,lme dh tak contact ak,heee takpe ak redha :')

dlu2,ak slalu rse alone,rse cm nobody loves me & im not needed in this world,

yela an,biological father ak sndri tak syg ak,kdg rse cm ak ni trbuang je,

dlu Abh slalu hug ak,ckp takkn tnggal ak seme,syg ak & gives me evrything i want,

but now? mne Abah when im still a kid & im still needing u by my side?

takde an? heee since then bg ak janji lelaki ni seme dusta lake,such big liars,

Fiqah rela wt keras hati,tak tego Abah,wt cm Abah ni dh mati,

wlaupon in my heart,Allah je taw how much im missing a father's love,

sbb tuh ak bkn jenis bdk yg manja2,ak taw ak takde tmpt nk brmanja seme uh,

ak nyesal dlu ak ni seductress + man destroyer,i know im stupid for doing tht,

but thts my past,ak taw law org tuh btol2 syg ak,they would accept me the way i am ^^

i just wanna say thanks for people who loves me & cares bout me <3

i appreciate tht a lot,mybe i dont show my feelings,but i'll always need u guys in my life :)

sparkle2 :D like someone's eyes :3 for me,ur the only one who lights up in the dark <3

awak2,saye nages ingt awk td taw tak? :')

hehehehe,mood ak tak brpe stabil,im extra sensitive now thts why i just cried,

i was just thinking of u,all those things we did for each other,teehee mcm filem je kn? :3

its like a movie,we're waiting for the ending,and im hoping its a happy ending <3

im sorry if im not the kind of gurl u wish to be with,but i try to be the best for u syg ^^

i've been waiting for someone to unlock my heart that have been trapped for so long,

u came with the keys uninvitedly,yet somehow i learnt to accept u they way u are,

ur the strength who kept me going on,who made me feel like im finally loved by someone,

mybe all my ex bfore this have wealth,good looks but u have something they never had,

hey dear,u have that special thing i've always kept to only myself which is my HEART <3 

u dont need to act in front of me to look like ur awesome,coz i accept u the way u are,

u dont need to give me anything to show tht u love me,coz i love u no matter wht,

i've seen u fight for ur love for someone & tbh,i really admire ur determination,

u taught me how to hold on & how to fight for love & thts why i never stopped loving u,

straight from ur eyes,i can see tht beautiful soul tht i always wish it would be mine,

everyday,i pray to Allah tht u would be happy with a person tht u love,

i tried to let u go,i tried to forget u,yet it seems like that wasnt meant to happen,

ur like the sun tht feeds the sun in my world,somehow u seem to wake me up to life,

of all the things in life tht i could fear,the only thing tht would hurt me is if u werent here,

so im not tht good at expressing my feelings,but i guess these words show wht i feel,

ur my first true love & i hope u would be the last <3

sooo thts all for now,i guess now u can be sure,tht i do love u ULW ^^

heeeeee,sumpah while typing all these,tears are running down my cheeks :')

oke so thts all for now,idk why tbe2 ak tringin nk type all these words,

i guess i just feel too touched & happy tht im loved by someone thts one of a kind,

thank u for being there for me in bad or good times,ur certainly an amazing person my dear ^^

oke so gtg now,tears of happiness just cant stop,i think im crazy x)

adios amigos x) iloveyou + ineedyou + imissyou dear <3 im out,peace :D