Redha :) Nk Nages,Tpi Ak Dh Penat

hey peeps,its the 1st day of PMR,takot? jyeahh :)

pttnye study right? hahaha whtevs,ak mlas do'oh llu eh :p

taw dok,hri ni lam dewan,ak ase weird gler bangang,koya saboh o__o

ngatuk ade,bsan ade,kjut ade,bleh kte mse uh mixed emotions --'

ak tak sht doe,pfft :x best an? mse gini,ak sick :)

im unconcious sometimes,soul ak uh mcm dh fly away jee,

ak tired,exhausted,ak nk mrah2 un,ak rse dok lrat dh,ak nk live my life jee :)

td mse exam,especially mse pai,ak rse lonely ngat,rse cm im all alone,

dear satan inside me,ak taw ur trying to invade my soul,

i try to fight alot,kdg uh rse weak gler dh,tpi i nver gave up :)

seriously,taw tak? ak rse nk mti,ak penat,ak taknak live anymore,i've had enough,

u can hve my soul,u can control my body,i just want to stop living,

hey satan,i realise u make me hate the people i love,

people yg ak syg,seme mu try to break apart an? oh satan,ur si fucking sial :)

ak syg bdk tuh,plz leave my soul u evil satan,i need my life back,

ak nk nages,tpi air mate ak dh tkde,ak ni mcm dh tnggal sisa je,

ak nk cpat2 hbis pmr,ak nk close my eyes & i hope i will nver open it again,

dye un cm dh tak syg ak,yela an,ak sape,pompuan yg mmg low standard je,

ak mls dh nk mrh2,i dont want to hurt anyone anymore,ak nk idop hepi2 je ^^

dear dude yg ak syg gler babi,ak ckp ni seme coz i love u,

ak taw mu byk hurt nan ak,thts why,right now,whtever makes u happy,then im oke :)

syg,law la ak ni byk sgt wt skit hti mu,cri la org laen,

wt npe mu nan ak law mu asyik hurt je,wt ak rse cm failure gok at the end sbb wt mu mrh2 :(

i want u to be happy no matter with whom u choose to be with,

im sory for all the hurt i've caused u,only now i realise tht im not the one for u,

pttnye ak wt mu happy n tc of u,but ur not happy so i've failed in doing my job :(

dear God,y are u testing me with so much things? dont i deserve to be happy?

at least,mse PMR gini,bia la life ak oke eventhough its just for the week,

ak rayu sgt,ak mohon,plz give me one day without any hurt & sadness,

dgn Abah tbe2 text ak nk jmpe blik,mntk daughter dye blik smle kt dye,

hey2,sdh2 la hurt ak,ak ni dh penat nk lyan seme drama family,

Abah,law u really care bout me,then u would know its best to leave me alone,

lepas dh buang Fiqah & now u want me back? hell no,im not gonna forgive u :)

mu wt ak benci kaum adam,mu wt ak brdendam dgn males,

u were the one who hurt me too much tht for me to fall in love was so hard,

only when im 15,i fall in love wit someone,aftr 15 years,such a long period of time,

Abah,u ruin my life,u broke my heart & until now it still havent recovered fully,

plz ahh,dont come back for me,dont come back at all,

i've grown to be too strong to love u as a father again,

for now,Fiqah xmo tgk mke Abah,im sory but i hate u too much,

hmm needless to say,ak bnci mu,mu bleh brambus dri idop ak,ur not my father,

NEVER WOULD BE !

so enough bout dajjal uh,wt skit hti ak je ingt kt dye,dasar jantan sial :D

hey2,taw tak? org yg ak syg thap gler2 babi tknak ckp nan ak,

dok sdey mne weh,smpai ak nages thap banjir,dye takdok? yeah ak rse cm smpah :)

dye light to my life yg in complete darkness ni,dye takdok? yeah ak dh BUTA,

dont go dear,i cant do this on my own :(

org laen nk mrh ak,ak dok kesah mne,tpi law bdk ni,ak bleh mati law dye tnggl ak T.T

esk paper geo,hmm takdok mood llu ase,i miss him :(

tkpe ahh,ak xmo nages2 ngat,tkut ak headache lok kekgy D:

blah dlu neh? idk wht else to say coz im dying without someone,

bye peeps,ILY <3 assalamualaikum ^^