Heya dear readers,ak x tau nk cite psal pe but well lets just go with the flow ok? well maybe u noticed yg ak just changed my blog's link,its just a way for me to express myself in both the good n bad ways..let me explain the hidden meanings beneath those words
BROKEN HEARTS?
why? well i was born tht way,ak just srg gurl yg was really hated by my own dad since i was a baby,he really felt like the presence of me was just really disturbing..ak secara jujur n ikhlas x pernah rse mrh Allah wt idop ak cmni,dh nk wt cmne kn? this was my fate,ak just brsbr dgn segale ape yg tuhan duga ak? sbr yee Fiqah,byk dugaan 2 sbb Allah syg :') ak slalu ingtkn ayt 2 dlm otak ak just so ak ni x jdi gler or smething coz kdang klu ingtkn idop ak,ak sndri x de smangat nk lalui liku2 idop ni..so complicated kn? i wish there were answers for all the questions playing in my head but trust me, kte x kn ade jawapan utk smua soalan yg kte nk :) its just life works like that..example,y do i love him? even ak sndri x tau knpe n idk y tht happens..like my friend said,trying to explain y u love someone is like trying to explain the taste of water..the first time i looked at her words,i knew that it was completely true ^_^ well ok,next meaning~
SILENT SCREAMS?
silent screams,smething tht always happens to me :) tau knpe? bcoz x kn nk scream kuat2 kt skola or rmh,sah2 org ckp ak gler xD kdg2 i am screaming,u just cant hear it,coz its a silent scream,a loud piercing scream from the bottom of this small broken heart <3 ak kdg ble ingt kt abah,rse cm..eh knpe tuhan wt idop ak cmni? knpe ak? knpe x bdk laen? at last i stop questioning myself n u know wht? x kesah la how sad or frustrating my life is,ak akn sntiasa wake up each day,move on like everyday of my life is the last one so i would cherish every single moment of it with the people i dearly loved :*
SPEECHLESS?
ok so nde ni x de kna ngena with my blog's link coz its not even in my blog's link xD so at last,i know the truth n well tau x? for a split second,tears fell on these cheeks...happy or sad tears? if i say its happy tears,its like trying to lie to myself...ok honestly,ak agk sdey tpi kn if org yg ak mmg syg n care bout bhagia,i will be happy for them no matter how hurt it will make me feel :') ak x nk ahh wt status psal prasaan ak skrg ni,ak just lbih ske luah kt sni..a place yg ak rse im free like a bird that flying up on the blue sky :3 hehe dh start dh prangai ak :p LOL xD
ok ahh,so i guess x de pape dh kot..klu ak nk elaborate lg prasaan ak skrg ni,ak just tkut nnti ak yg nages srg2 n seriously,i just dont want tht to happen :) so okeh,ciao dlu guys :p muah :* ak syg or yg syg ak <3 hehe tc wehh :D gbu :3
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