Finally FREE :) Thank You ALLAH :')

hmm,seriously,ak bnor ea,tak au lagy nk kte nde :p

but sbb ni je chance ak nk blogging,baek ak take the opportunity sblum trlepas <3

so ak hepi gler atm,u know why? sbb finally im totally freaking FREE! :')

19 August 2011 - 2.07am

the moment i was let out from my torture cage,

one sentence je,tuh pon sbb ak rezak sgt,trsasul pa --'

i guess i have reached the level where i cant stand it anymore,

tired of hiding,tired of faking n totally tired of acting,

doa ak,smua trmakbul,except the last one,but its ok,im still grateful ^.^

unexpectednye things yg jdi this week,but all of it affected my life in a big way,

ak duk hepi2 kjap then ak tringt,wht if,ak dh takde kt sni nnti?

next year,haish,ak tkut ble tgk its nearing the end of the year,

ak mlas nk pegy court smua,ak taknak pndh rmh Abah,ak taknk pegy KL,

elok2 ak dh oke,nde laen yg dtang mngacau detik bhagia ak --'

takpe la,klu pndh pon,duli ape ak? :p ak an LOYAL :)

so,nde yg ak ckp ak nk wt tuh,tak siap lagy,ssh doe! bnci ak x|

sabo je la,haish --'

tpi an,sumpah ahh ak rse,wht i feel right now,thre is no words to describe it,

ak nk sngih pon ade,nages pon ade,malu pon ade,rezak un ade,aiyaa --'

Hani Sufia my cantekcomeycikjelita <3

thanks for advice u babe,klu i tak dgr ckp u,i guess,smpai ble un i'll be tortured,

and mse jdi nde ni,sisters ak sdg accompany ak mse tuh,

Sis Sutanuka & Sis Monique <3

dua2 ade mse ak tgh rse nk faint tuh --' mujur dyeorg ade,oh I L Y my sygs :*

tpi ak nk kte kt srg je,yg mmg dh tolong ak,heal wound kt hti ak,slame game ni,

Sis Bristi Germanotta Wolf <3

she was the one who told me to hold on,

who make me move on when i was ready to give up,

and now sis,i know wht u meant,ur words are true & i know ur amazing,like u said,

only the people who hold on to who they love,who dream what they want,

who never stop caring for the love of their life,who never stop hoping to be owned by him/her,

are the people who will one day,be with the person they truly love,

for the first time,ak leh kate,without any doubts,i believe in love ^.^

thanks to my second family at my other fb acc which is my second soul,Shirley <3

i know dyeorg tak knal un,mmg tak prnah jmpe tpi u know,

wlaupon sntiase jauh di mate tpi sntiase dkat di hti,

im back,hehehe,smlm kn BRB :p

bru blik from my skul,tired gok sposen dua --'

ak sje lepak2 ngan Nida td,pratically singing our hearts out :p LMAO xD

u know wht? duk sje td,tbe2 i miss Aqi but i miss the memories more than i miss him,

our friendship was great,i hope hes happy & in a good condition wherever he is now :)

Aqi2,nnti ble2 kte maen bodo2 lagy oke? i miss all of ur laughs n smiles together ^.^

and Syuib,sory dlu ak slalu mrh mu,i didnt mean to,

but u were the best in making my heart stop beating,tht ak slalu jdi speechless,

and coz i didnt know wht to say to u,i would termaki mu whenever u talk to me,

then Amir,oh my dear Amir,mcm adek ak je ak anggp dye :)

hes funny,wt ak ske mcm org gler je kdg2,

and now im happy for him,seriously,i really am happy :D

then Fuad,hmm Fuad,history of u & me is freaking unforgettable,

mybe we're still not friends but i've put our story in the dump coz i hate to remember it,

then Ameer,mr, Hottie when i was 10,hahaha hes sweet :p

he loves to tease me,loves to make me smile,loves to see me laugh,

hes freaking nice n hes the last person who have seen me freehair,

tpi yeah i realise,he was a crush,not really my LOVE,

i was a kid,i was naive,i couldnt interpret wht i felt at tht time,

then my 1st ever bf,tht i actually dearly love at tht time,

Syabil :)

thanks for everything,thanks for ur love & care ^.^ dlu u pnggil i syg kn? 

luga molek mse tuh --' ak ingt lagy mse first2 u asked who do i like,

mse tuh ak tgh brbelah bhagi,i love u yet i love Ameer too,

then when for the final time u gave me choices,

1st u sed Amzad,second u sed Syahir & the last one,u pointed to urself,

then i sed yes,the last one :) then sbb ak malu,ak pusing dpan n wt bodo --'

then mse blik tuh,i'll always rmember,ur confession at me,dkat tepi tangga,

hehehe,ingt lagy mse u tarik my hand,took me to the stairs, look to my eyes & sed

'Eh Fiqah,ak dri dlu lagy memendam prasaan,i love u actually,only u'

ak cm O.O hahaha ak kejar Ameer but i didnt realise Syabil kejar ak,

oke bgom kn ak ni? --'

last2 mse blik tuh,ak nk blah,dye pnggil ak syg,

ak cm EEEEEEE --' geli oke? pnggil Fiqah dh ahh --'

hahaha well that is all my history,tuh smua laki2 yg ak akn ingt from my past,

they are crazy,they're amazing & they're unforgettable :)

oke hmm,dh tuh skrg ak ske laki mne? o.o

hmm hes someone,mybe ordinary,but for me hes extra-ordinary :)

oke i admit,ak syg dye more than i could ever do & hes my life :)

dye baek bhai,kdg tgk attitude dye,mmg wt ak,cm amazed o.o

im not trying to compliment him coz i like him,im saying this coz its the truth :)

oke enough puji2 dye,trbatuk2 dh dye uhh kt umh --'

oke so,urm,i realise,someone has changed lately :(

is it coz of me? is it coz of THAT?

ni ak mlas nk be in their lives ni,i dont wanna hurt anyone anymore --'

sory eh,if i broke ur heart,i didnt mean too,plz dont blame anybody else gurl,

haish,i think la kn,i shouldnt told the truth sblum ni,

kn they are happy together,why do i need to interfere?

hmm i just dont wanna see fights or rivalry anymore,i wanna see us happy,

eh btw,just for the record,ak dh takleh tgk face laki tuh --'

ak malu wehhh >.< mke ak nk blush skmo ase --'

and esk ak msuk klas 3 Sina,

idk how to react,im not freaking happy,but im not freaking sad either,

and smlm an ak pegy Giant ngan mama,pkai shawl weh,first time tuh --'

ak tak ske ngt ahh org hok wahi sngaja nk lnggar org,mcm sial je tau tak --'

mse ak msuk kdai cd oww,ade srg dude ea,dok au nde prob dye,

kjap2 trlanggar ak,ak pegy laen un,dye trlanggar gok,ugh base ba alif ba ya --'

smlm op,ak rse cm o.o err --'

ak ase ssh nk let go of someone special eventhough just for a while,

ok sy tau,sy sengal gler kn? --' HAHAHA :D

first time,ak lmbut hti ngan guys,haish im just crazy --'

oke ahh,ak seriously mlas nk update pnjg2,

kes takot trlebih pnjg & tkot nnti ak trjiwang or smething :p

HAHAHAHAH xD oke so tata :p

I L Y <3 Peace :D