Honesty Is The Best Thing U Could Ever Give Me :')

morning syg2 ku seme ^.^ hehe im still quite sleepy o.o

yesterday i cant sleep,eventhough ak dh duk lam complete darkness,

hey! ak bkn takot ke ape --' i just feel confused again o.o

thinking of someone's words,make me start to doubt all my actions all this while,

ak sedo ak spe,i dont deserve to be the replacement,im not nice like her,

ak diam slame ni,i hide everything coz ak taknak nde cmni jd,

of coz i promised ngan Sis Bristi,tht i would hold on to this until the very end,

but i dont think im tht strong anymore,a lot of times my heart was broken,

one more shatter is gonna make my heart permanently damaged & broken,

patience is everything,if i can be patient for 8 months,why now i cant be patient anymore?

ak trase ngan some words dye,hard to admit,but ayt dye mnyentuh 1 sudut dlm hti ak,

ak rse cm,oh,lupe,i cant ever be the replacement ur looking for,takpe la i understand :)

ak tawakkal dh,usaha dh,doa lake dh,so i believe im on the right path,

law tak,dh lame Allah makbulkn doa ak utk lupekn dye tros,

last 2 weeks,ak mmg dh taknak ske dye,rse cm ak give up hope dh,

ak rse cm,hey2,u know wht? its GAME OVER,i QUIT ^^

then ak fikir2 blik,mybe ak tgh frustrated,sbb tuh ak mcm mlas care smua nde dh,

so i turned to Allah,asked for HIS guidance,HE showed the way,gave me the clues,

but now im starting to doubt everything,im starting to question myself,

Murfiqah Sorhana Murhasmee,is this all a mistake u've done & gotten urself into?

but no,i still said no to tht question,i believe in Allah's powers,

K E L I R U

kelirunye ak,mmikirkn smua nde ni,ase cm,

ARHH! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN?! IS THERE NO ENDING TO THIS STORY?

yeah,mybe takdok,law ade un,maybe it will be a decade to come,

bodo kn ak ni? dh lame2 cmni un,ak tak give up2 lagy,

kwn2 ak senang2 je leh ckp,'eh Fiqah,just forget him,laki rmai lagy dlm dunia ni.'

eh sial,ak taw la rmai,berjuta2 lagy kot dudes dlm dunia ni,

dh nk wt cmne,hti ak dh lekat kt dye,pkai gam gajah kot,takpon UHU --'

i know i love him more than anything,but kdg2,trtanye2 ak,

is it worth to love him like this? am i making things worst or the opposite?

takpela,ak still sabo ngan smua ni,assabarul minal iman :)

he stole my heart unexpectedly,now its his decision to either break it or keep it,

ape2 jdi pasni,sumpah ak redha je,smua nde yg trjdi ni,ade hikmahnye,

tpi seriously,dont try to lie to me,and dont ever try to lie to urself & ur heart,

sometimes i can read ur heart & see ur mind better than u can see mine,

plz,whatever u do,just be honest,ak taknak dgr lies,coz i've never lied to u,

the answer to the question,is in urself,in ur heart,not ur mind,

close ur eyes,whoever pops in ur mind 1st,is the one u truly cant live without,

so have u got the answer? i hope u have :)

u still dont know me,my determination is not tht low,im not like the other gurls u've meet,

im different,if once i say i'll stay,i mean it,as long as i could,i would stick to my words,

and ak ckp ngan Sis Cessy bout this,well shes my counsellor and also my princess <3

dye ckp,'sis,just be honest with ur heart,be urself,somehow later,u'll see the way'

hunn,i get wht u mean,but im honest,im being myself,yet the way is not yet revealed,

oke so Sis Monique beria2 nk tau sal nde tuh,ak cm,HAHAHA its all ok sis :)

shes really nice & sweet,shes like a real sister to me,i love her to death <3

hey,i just wanna say,i trust u,i've never trust people this way,

ak tak prnh nk question kepercayaan ak kt mu,coz i believe in u & i trust u,

so is tht clear? i think it is :) btw,ur stuck in my heart like a bluetooth thts always on,

so mybe ni je la for this post,awl2 pagy ak dh blogging :p hehehe :D

mybe later,tonite,law ak de more ideas,i'd update more,Insyaalah,

sory law ak offended anyone,ak just nk be honest this time,no more lies :]

so oke,I L Y dear <3 tc peeps,bubye ^.^